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Friday, July 01, 2011
we don't have a perfect relationship. i know it may seem like other people have such ideal partners, but i'm sure they have their own set(s?) of problems. but what people are able to see is always the happy side of every relationship through social media and such.
sometimes i get so frustrated, i feel like i'm on the verge of letting go, but i never did. and sometimes i don't even know whatever i'm doing is right, because many can say that i deserve better, and that there are many fish(es?) in the ocean. then i'd ask, what ocean? then again, this can only be determined by God. so i'd reason out... perhaps these problems we're facing is really for the better for both of our future. but then again...what future? the future when both of us are not together anymore and so we'll know what to work on for the next relationship that comes along, or the future that we're going to build together?
not every girl would feel this way, and guys definitely have a harder time understanding this situation but... it sucks having to feel this way, and having felt so committed to something that's not definite. yes, we can plan our future together, and God will determine everything. point is, that's IF we even have a plan. but people would say that we should just go with the flow - that's IF there's a flow in the first place.
right now, i just don't know what i want. my heart is always here in place for you. but i keep having doubts (don't blame me) and it's not making me very happy. you know, the heart's been ruptured from the massive heartacheS, it's so difficult not to doubt? i really wanna be with you and live happily ever after, but that's what I want, isn't it?
why am i so sure?
sigh, have faith... have faith.... :(
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